Monday, November 15, 2004
a few days ago, i was feeling lonely and empty, i dunno why. i wanted to talk to someone but there was no one to talk to. i felt so helpless and just stoned on my bed. although i am not sure, i think that i felt like what a loser must have felt like, the loser feeling.
then today, the message during service spoke. i understood what was happening..i think.
we went fort canning park today for jyc outing. nice games and worship. pleasant rain. delicious food. great knowing each other. but i still wished tt i had talked more..and be more myself. hahah..i really wished for tt to happen. cos sometimes, i still feel like i am in a shell. i bet my brother feels like tt too..
changed my tattered and torn wallet to sumtink nice, at least to me. cos i was still walking around bugis alone at 7pm looking for my new wallet alone.hahaha..i wanted to ask someone to go with me but they're all having fun playing soccer(i played for a while). den the girls were gone alr. so it's just me alone again!antisocial huh?hahah..
ohh yess.i am going to swim tomorrow..in YISHUN! and after that it's soccer in NUS. maybe i will meet church people tomorrow in NUS, and i really hope so, cos i want to play other stuff beside soccer.
good bye.
yours sincerely,
nathan



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